I have struggled with my weight for almost all of my life. I would lose some, then gain it all back plus a few extra pounds. I’m now at a point in my life where I realize that I need to change. I have joint pain from all the excess weight I’ve been carrying around. I am constantly wondering what other people think of me when they see me. I’m disgusted with how I look and feel. I know that my weight has caused me to have problems with depression. Thankfully, I haven’t been diagnosed with heart disease or diabetes, but I know that my chances are high unless I do something.
In the past, I have tried numerous times to lose weight. All of them have failed. My most successful attempt, however, was several years ago, when I decided to create a documentary about my weight loss. I am going to be doing that again. This time, however, it’s going to be a little different. First, I am not going to be publicizing like I did last time. I’m only going to show a few people and then anyone who may stumble upon it. I may at some point publicize it on Facebook, but not for a while. I don’t want this to end up like it did last time, with me wondering more about ratings than about my health.
How is this going to be different than before? That’s a great question. What I realize that I didn’t really understand before is that every moment of every day, I have to make a choice, and that choice is to either continue on my journey, or surrender to the temptations that are out there. I also have to conquer my fear, which I will talk about in my next post.
I pray that God gives me the strength to do this, because I know that I can’t do it on my own. Will be it a struggle? Yes. Will I have times that I make bad decisions? Yes, but I will not allow them to derail me. I’m making the decision now to fight and to overcome. Never again will I allow myself to live like I have been living. Never again…